My 18th Birthday

Oh hey there!

Happy Legal Birthday to me! I’m 18 and legally, I can drink, smoke and drive. But I don’t drink and smoke so I will make do with driving.

I turned 18 this past Saturday on 14th November and it actually went well.

I fell asleep at about 11pm the night before so I was not able to witness the clock striking 12. But that’s okay.

I woke up at 7:30am in the morning and checked my phone first thing and true enough, there were already so many wishes. But the funny thing is, I didn’t expect anyone to remember my birthday.

The day before my birthday, I was really upset because all my friends whom I had planned to have a birthday lunch with cancelled on me.

I know they didn’t really plan to cancel on me but they had other commitments so I had already planned to meet them yesterday but I had to cancel on them because I forgot that I had an extra class. So, I will make it up to them as soon as I get a chance to.

I received a ton of wishes. Some on Whatsapp, Snapchat, Facebook, text message and in-person from my family members. (I will post some screenshots at the bottom of this post)

But the sweetest message came from my best friend. It really made me cry. I won’t try to describe it so I will just let you read the screenshot.

So, on my birthday, I went to an award ceremony and received an award. After the ceremony which lasted for an hour was done, I walked to Ikea which was nearby and walked around and saw a bunch of stuff. But I didn’t really buy anything. I figured that I have all the love in the world, what more do I need?

I came home to Grandma’s after I was done and Grandma gave me lunch. I really had tears in my eyes and felt so blessed that my Grandma (Nani) is still alive and is serving me lunch in her old age.

After lunch, Nani gave me a new kurta (blouse) to wear. Although it was not the most fashion forward looking kurta, I felt really ashamed that in her age, Nani can still sew whereas I cannot even sew a straight line.

The rest of the day was a frenzy of cooking and baking. I helped my uncle to cook Mee Hoon Goreng. Mee Hoon Goreng is actually flat rice noodles that is fried with a chilli and onion paste, vegetables but we also added boiled potatoes and chicken breast cubes. It actually tasted really nice.

Then after, my Auntie and I baked a cake. We didn’t have enough time, so we used a boxed cake mix and made a chocolate cake. I then decorated it with leftover buttercream that I had after frosting some cookies. And I decorated it with choclate sprinkles.

That was pretty much my day but I had a good time. And being 18 doesn’t feel much different than 17 except for higher expectations and responsibility.

I was surprised to see so many messages

From Dearest Gracelyn

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And dear Atikah as well

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From my babe Jing Heng

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My sweet friends from last year who didn’t forget as well

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From my babe Amanda as well

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Yi Jie really sent such a long message and made me cry.

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It was also my first time in all of our friendship watching him use that many emojis

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These are just some of the many wishes I received. Thank you to anyone who kept me in your thoughts or wished me. Just thank you sooo much!

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Rejection + How To Deal With It

Oh hey guys!

I don’t even know where to start with this topic but I feel qualified enough to write about this having gone through multiple rejections on my own.

So, here goes….

Rejection is a horrible thing. Whether its from your friends, your classmates, an acquiantance or even someone you fancy.

Sometimes, in life, you never seem to understand why did your friends make you an outcast.
Or why is the person you are interested in does not acknowledge your feelings for him/her.

You know, I have been thinking a lot about this lately and can never understand why would people ever reject someone.

If you want to be friends, befreind everyone. Don’t form your own cliques and exclude others and make them feel outcasted.

If I am going be to be brave enough and share my feelings and tell you that I fancy you, don’t just reply ‘Ok’ and make me question you further if the feeling is mutual or not. It already took me a lot of guts to confess to you, the least you can do is give a simple and short explanation on why we cannot be together.

Nonetheless, whatever the case is, you should never have to go through it alone. Therefore, I came up with a list in helping you deal with it.

1) Talk about it

Confide in someone you really trust about your feelings and hurt. Who knows they may able to figure out a way to solve things?

Now, I understand that both guys and girls deal with things separately.

As a girl myself, I personally prefer to talk 1 or 2 of my closest girl friends and just confide in them ir seek thier advice.

It works for me, mostly. Or I either write about it and let it all out. Like writing a song or writing about the situation on a Word document on my laptop and after I’m done, I just save it and never look back.

From what I know from my guy friends, is that they go out and talk about it over some drinks or they invite one other home and discuss it and get moderately drunk or they just let it all out on their on guys WhatsApp group chat which is not so bad either.

2) Spend time with your family and friends

I cannot emphasise how important it is to have a group of people around you who keep you grounded and make you forget all your problems.

Now just yesterday, I faced my own set of rejection. Its a long story but to keep it short, I have admitted to having feelings for this guy on 2 separate occasions and told him but he just does not feel the same way.

Naturally, I was upset so I decided to keep myself occupied by doing schoolwork. But I wasn’t getting anywhere, so I packed up my stuff and went to have a sleepover at my cousins house. My family members were out of town anyway.

We had fun just chatting and playing with my baby cousin and we watched movies till 3am.

It was a great experience and I did not feel sad for even one bit.

3) Dance and forget about it

Or sing or bake or do whatever you want.

If you know anything about me, its that I don’t hold a grudges for too long.

Is holding a grudge going to help me get revenge? No, its only going to look desperate and cold. Will it help get anything useful out of it? No, its only going to be more detrimental to my emotional and psychological state of mind.

So, I decide to do what’s best for me.

I love singing and dancing to “Shake It Off” by Taylor Swift. It gets me moving and dancing like no one’s watching and I 99.9% feel so much better anyway. (Haters gonna hate)

But feel free to do what you find works best even if it means going  shopping or for a night out on the town.

4) Just ignore it

No matter what happens rejection is unavoidable. You cannot make everyone like you anyway. So, why not just move past it and show how much better you really are anyway.

I have created a playlist of songs that I listen to make me feel heaps better about rejection.

“Shake It Off” by Taylor Swift (Always gets me dancing and gets me in a better mood)

“Clean” by Taylor Swift (Its a song that shows that you are not damaged goods because of someone’s decision. You are a better person because you survived a bunch of tough situations and became more stronger and wiser)

“Confident” by Demi Lovato (Really what’s wrong with being confident?)

“Problem” by Ariana Grande ( The line, “I got one less problem without you” rings true)

“22” by Taylor Swift (You don’t have to be 22 and be a hipster to listen to this songs because we are all “happy, free, confused and lonely”)

“Who Says” by Selena Gomez (This song serves as a reminder that everyone is beautiful in their own way)

“New Romantics” by Taylor Swift (Heartbreak is indeed the new national anthem. It’s so sassy that I cannot even handle it)

“Fight Song” by Rachel Platten (This song gives the “I’m gonna prove you wrong and survive this even if no one believes in me” vibe)

“Falling” by HAIM (This song tells us to not give up anymore because it’s only going to get tougher from here)

And lastly, how could I miss out this 90’s hit being a 90’s baby myself.

“Wannabe” by Spice Girls (Its not really anything to do with rejection but it’s sure bound to get you in a good mood)

And that was my way on helping you deal with rejection. Let me know if you think I missed out any other steps.

Take care and I’ll talk soon!

November

Oh hey guys!

So, November is here and that means that there are only two more months left before the start of a New Year.

Whenever I see or hear or say, the words ‘New Year’, I start getting anxious. Where has the rest of the year went? What have I achieved this year? What more do I have left to achieve?

But more than anything, the last few months (specifically September to December) of the year are my favourite.

Why you ask?

Because its the holidays! And also a lot of birthdays of people I know happen around this time.

And also, my birthday happens around this time too! I’m turning 18 soon! Yay! 

So far, my birthday plans are to go to an award ceremony where I will be getting an award. I’m getting this award by my sponsored hospital for my good GPA (I frankly could’ve done a lot better).

And after the ceremony is over, I will be having lunch with my friends.

As for celebrating with my family, it will be done on Sunday. It will be small and simple. Hopefully, my aunt will bake me cake.

So, what else has been going on?

Busy with school as usual. I have three class tests this week. The tests are for: Gerontology and Community Nursing, Cell and Molecular Biology and Pharmacology.

Gerontology is basically the study of old people and it seems to be going okay-ish for me. Not too difficult but its definitely not as easy too.

Cell and Molecular Biology is interesting actually. I used to be really good at chemistry back in secondary school but my physics was horrible and it happened to pull down my grades. Oh well.

But in this module, we get to combine chemistry and biology and other forms of study such as virology etc.

We will be studying cloning as well and the most fun thing is that for one of the practical lessons, we will be getting to extract and grow our own DNA. Ain’t it cool?!

Pharmacology just seems basic for me. But I know that down the road it will get tougher. So far we have learnt how to serve medications based on its time, dosage, frequency, route of administration (whether its oral or IV infusion or IV injection etc.) and many other stuff. It is kinda interesting too!

I am also awaiting my next attachment which will be at TTSH in December.

But the real highlight of my semester are the friends I am making. Amanda, Atikah, Candice, Hui Qing among others. They are all really nice and sweet.

In fact, today something hilarious happened. I was having lunch with them and had bought lemon juice because I heard that drinking lemon juice burns your fat.

Naturally, the juice was sour because lemon is acidic and I was making scrunched up faces every time I took a sip. So, Amanda suggested I add some sugar so I can drink it with less torment. She told me that the stall keeps sugar by the side of the counter. So, I went ahead and added half a spoon of sugar.

When I came back to my table and started having my drink, it started to taste even more awful. And I had no idea why! But I continued drinking.

Vanessa then told me that the “stuff” I actually added was salt. By this time, my jawlines got really stiff. Oh man, I tried to dilute the drink with water but to no avail. So, the drink was wasted and Amanda felt guilty but on the bright side, we gained some new fond memories to laugh about.

Well, well, its time for me to go now. But I will be back soon (hopefully!)

Take care!

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I wore make up for a change this Halloween (that is Amanda behind me)

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School is tough but I choose to be happy and make the most of the situations

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Talking to these two everyday calms me down (That’s Gracelyn and Yijie, by the way)

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Finally, this annoying dude also reminds me to stay strong. Thankful for our friendship 🙂